Notes: Losing Your Body? Nah! (1)Many people say that once a woman becomes a mother, she will lose her body, become fat and have jiggly yet flabby body especially those who has baby delivered through c-section including me. Don’t even dream to get your body back, so they say. But here I am, I prove them wrong. You can still have a well-shape body even you have many children be it through normal delivery and/or c-section.

I started getting back to my training regime at seventh weeks postpartum. I must say that I didn’t find it easy. Sometimes I got frustrated because I didn’t seem to lose any baby fat after working out for one month. Sometimes I got frustrated or even depressed because l only run at the slow pace. Sometimes I even gave up, just sat down, did no exercises for hours and just played with my phone because I felt that I did not make any progress. 

But one day, I said to myself “Don’t be too hard on yourself. Just started again,” so I started to take it easy that time. I just forgot about the aesthetics result and just focused on the form of my exercise as well as my diet.

At the end, aesthetic result is not my main exercise’s goal but sanity is. As a result, I got my body back faster than I expected as you can see on the picture above. 

Ps: no whey protein is being used. It’s all natural diet.

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Notes: My Clothes, Your Clothes

Are you wearing fast fashion products either it is from Zara, Pull & Bear, H&M, Bershka and any other? How often do you buy a new outfit? And….have you ever wondered who makes your clothes, under what condition, how do they make it or where do they make it? Well, let me tell you a story.


Yesterday, my friends and I went to an interesting yet eye-opening trip. We visited one  ready made garment factories in Bangladesh. This trip gave us the opportunity to see how our clothes are manufactured from the scratch. Located 35 kilometer from Dhaka, the factory is owned and run by Beximco Group, a Bangladeshi multinational company. The company manufactures products for a wide range of clients ranging from Zara, Pull&Bear, Calvin Klein, Tommy Hilfiger to DKNY. According to its official website, currently the company’s Textile & Apparel Division employs more than 5,150 people.

Bangladesh is known as the second largest ready made garment producer after China. The industry has become one of the largest export earning contribution to the country. According to Dhaka based newspaper The Daily Star, the industry has generated export earning up to USD 28.67 billion as of December 2016. The industry hopes to increase to USD 50 billion by 2021.

SONY DSCThe Bangladesh textile and garment industry employs approximately 4 million people. Most of the workers are women. Every month, they earn approximately 7,000 to 10,000 BDT, this figure is actually slightly higher than its minimum wage which is at 5,300 BDT. According to various local media report, the worker union is demanding that the minimum wage should be increased to 16,000 BDT.


Some of you might remember the 2013 Rana Plaza incident which caused more than 1,100 killed and 2,500 injured; this incident is known as the deadliest industrial disaster ever. Since the incident, the Bangladesh’s textile and apparel industry claims that they have been making effort to improve the factory condition that meet the safety standard. Yet, as we walked around the factory and learnt about its production process, I noticed that many textile and apparel workers are exposed to high level of noise from the machines as well as chemical hazards without any protection which you can see from my pictures. This condition is feared to have a significant impact to the worker’s health. Not forget to mention that many of them spend hours to standing or sitting while doing their work. This made me wonder how much the 2013 Rana Plaza incident has really brought changes to the textile and garment’s industry in Bangladesh.

I must say that this trip has reflected upon me that despite the fact that Bangladesh has become a centre of ready-made garment manufacturing for many global fashion brands, the country is still severely underdeveloped. Additionally, workers tend to have terrible conditions while others get massive profits. Yet, without this sector millions would be unemployed.


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Notes: The Ugly Truth

LRG__DSC6436When I returned to Indonesia last October, many told me that I have gained weight. I was afraid to admit and accept the fact that I have gained weight. Why? It is because I used to be very disciplined with my diet and exercise. It is just an ugly truth for me.

Although people told me in a joking manner, hearing the ugly truth somehow made me a bit depressed that time. Even worse, as a sensitive person, somehow I felt that I was being mocked or bullied while they might not intend to mock or bully me.

Therefore, I was thinking of losing my fat in an instant way by doing some pricey treatment and went to nearby clinic. As soon as I was sitting at the clinic, the doctor offered me a various treatment, which is crazy-expensive. So I said to myself “Should I do it? But That’s not me.”

Yet, I took the cheapest treatment acupuncture on that day. But I felt so guilty because I have been always against an instant way to be skinny. In the end, what is wrong being curvy?

I forced myself to get back to my normal routine by doing my morning running, exercise and controlling my diet with the expectation that I could go be 43 kg and lean again. I mean I am still lean but I want to be leaner.

However, my personal trainer said to me that I look better now because I look healthier than before. I am fit and not fat. All I need to do is to ignore those, who have been controlled media about the perfect female body image.

At the end of the day, being healthy is more important than being skinny. Although I am 47 kg, all my extra small size clothes are still fit me well.

Notes: Marriage

ORG__DSC5067Many young people want to get married to their lover. They feel that their lover is the love of their life. It would be perfect to live together for the rest of their life. But I wonder whether they really understand what marriage is?

Well… I guess we have been indoctrinated with happily ever after Cinderella story without being shown what happens next after she got married to the prince. Who knows that they try killing each other…. ?! No?

That is why I do not like to attend a wedding party.


Notes: Gossiping

DSCF2832The reason why people like to talking bad about other people or gossiping because that’s the only way to put themselves in the conversation and other’s people mind. While they usually would not be in anybody’s mind. They realise that they are nobody, living nobody’s life and they want to be noticed. So…. anything that ‘nobody’ can say to put themselves in mind or on the mouth of somebody, that is what they are going to do and continue to do. Right?


Notes: Judge Me

ORG__DSC6299When people judge me as a gold digger, heaux or even slut because I wrote book titled ‘Bule Hunter’ and talked about s.e.x. in some chapter, -which is part of the reality of life but some people are too afraid/ hypocrite to talk about it openly- I actually don’t really care. 

If you wanna say those things about me, it’s fine. Say it. Perhaps I was-am a few of those things, perhaps I have done things in my life that I am not so proud of. I am not a saint. But one thing that we have to understand that the good and the bad always come together as one package. Just saying tho 

Notes: The Magdalene Featured Bule Hunter

Yesterday  a good friend of mine, Mahel told me that the Magdalene finally featured my first baby “Bule Hunter”. The article titled “What ‘Bule Hunters’ Wants’ was written by Sebastian Partogi, a Jakarta based feminist writer.  I felt so thrilled with it. Thank you for featuring my first book…. the Magdalene.

Readers …. Check the article out!


The Eyes [2014: Yuventius Nicky]

The Eyes [2014: Yuventius Nicky]

Indonesian women who have Western partners or husbands are often met with negative, sometimes harsh judgment from people around them, from gold diggers to exotic-looking harlots.

​When you see an Indonesian woman with brown complexion walking together with a Western man, for example, you might hear responses like, “Why on Earth would a bule want to be with a woman with a tampang babu?”

Bule is an Indonesian slang word for Westerners, while tampang babu means the face of a domestic help.

Irked by such stereotypes, Jakarta-based writer Elisabeth Oktofani decided to write  a book called Bule Hunter: Kisah Wanita Pemburu Bule (Bule Hunter: Tales of Women who Pursue Western Men). Published by Rene Books this year, it is based on her interviews with several women with Western partners to understand their motivation in pursuing the men. Read more here


Review: The Magic of Homemade Rice and Coffee Scrub

Do know you that coffee bean and rice grain have a great benefit for your skin? [2014: EO]

Do know you that coffee bean and rice grain have a great benefit for your skin? [2014: EO]

In these last few years, I have been having a hard time to deal with my skin (oily and acne) problem. I have been seeing a number of dermatologist, purchasing the best a.k.a expensive skin care product and spending million rupiah to get rid of it but all I got was just a constant disappointment. Nothing worked well and caused me dependency! So, after the “innovation” of toothpaste face mask to get rid my acne, which works well and I still apply it to my face, I just discovered that I also can get rid of dull skin, black spot and to have a glowing skin by making my own homemade facial and body scrub with coffee bean and rice grain. How come? Below is the fun fact! According to my internet research, Dr. Leslie Baumann, a dermatologist at the University of Miami, was quoted by Elle Magazine Canada, mentioned that the caffeine in coffee can help to smoothen the skin and also remove the skin cancer cell by sun damage. She added that caffeine is an antioxidant, it helps to shrink the blood vessel and dehydrates fat cells.

Homemade coffee and rice scrub [2014:EO]

Homemade coffee and rice scrub [2014:EO]

Other than that, an article on mentioned that coffee scrub can help to treat the redness and inflammation, get rid of cellulite and also smoothen the skin. In addition to that, coffee scrub also can help to get rid the dark under-eye circle. Meanwhile  Caroline Frazer, a skincare expert, was quoted by, pointed out that that rice scrub helps to smoothen and brighten the skin because it contains pro-vitamin B5 and vitamin E. The article also mentioned that rice has been used by Japanese to get flawless skin for hundred years.

Applying the homemade rice and coffee facial scrub [2014: EO]

Applying the homemade rice and coffee facial scrub [2014: EO]

So….. since I found out about the great benefit of coffee and rice for my skin, I have been continuously making my own homemade facial scrub from coffee and rice on daily basis. Everyday, I scrub my face with it especially after I did an outdoor workout or used a make up, i.e powder. And guess what? After a month I applied it to my face, I have started to see the result of it where my facial skin is brighter, smother, firmer and glowing. Of course, I have been aware that it DOES NOT give me AN INSTANT best result but I see that the result comes GRADUALLY. Nowadays, I can start to see that the result coming, where I have so much less acne comparing than before. If I do have acne, it usually comes only 1 or 2 before my menstruation comes. On the top of that, I also can confidently go out with  my face naked, i.e I don’t have to use any foundation or bb cream to cover up my dull facial skin anymore. However sometimes I am still using powder, it depends on the occasion.  You can see the different on the picture below!

Before using the magic coffee and rice scrub! FYI, I wore make-up in this photo [2014: E O]

Before using the magic coffee and rice scrub! FYI, I wore make-up in this photo [2014: E O]

My naked face! No foundation, no powder, no heavy make-up! [2014:EO]

My naked face! No foundation, no powder, no heavy make-up! [2014:EO]

So how do you make your homemade rice and coffee scrub? It is very easy! Just grind two table spoon of rice and a table spoon of coffee bean together. Mix the powder with either mineral water, olive oil or honey. For me, I usually mix it with water only as I don’t particularly believe that the olive oil or honey that I bought 100 percent organic or natural. I am worried if it might contain some chemical, which might be harmful for my skin. You know … business people are tricky. They claim their product to be organic meanwhile some of them are not. So I rather to use mineral water. Lol! FYI, I also use the rice and coffee scrub for my body. I am glad that I found this great secret natural beauty recipe, which costs me small fortune and works well. I also don’t have to be worried with any chemical side effect for my face anymore because it is all organic and so far I have no side bad effect from it. Now I can save my money that I have been spending for skincare treatment product, which never worked, for something else.

Goodbye expensive skincare products! [2014: EO]

Goodbye expensive skincare products! [2014: EO]

It is amazing that actually we can find a health treatment in our own home. It is natural, organic and inexpensive. And you know…. this great “innovation” really helps me to minimise my spending  on cosmetic as well as helps me to minimize my consumption on chemical products, which tend to have a negative effect to my body. So farewell expensive chemical facial skin care products!

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