Notes: Why Am I Blogging?

e44c7025-693d-4983-8cf2-a6dcbbb37b28Perhaps some of you wonder why I like to share my personal problem in social media, i.e blog. Well, I am the type of person who I always have a reason why I do thing things whether why I shave my hair off, why I go to the gym or even why I blog about my personal life.

So why do I blog about my personal life? Once I read a blog post saying that writing a journal would help our personal growth and development because it would give us an insight into our behaviour and moods. I kind of agree with that statement, especially I have been writing a personal diary since I was a little girl and have been blogging since I was 16. I found that writing a journal would help me to reflect on my life especially everything that I have been going through. On top of that, I also can review the improvement of my writing skill and my vocabulary bank.

But I must say that I am not kind of person who likes to share my problem with my friend.  It is not because I don’t trust them to keep my secret but I tend to not believe or trust their judgement. Not saying that they are wrong, it is just ….. their judgement tends to lead me to further confusion.

And the most annoying part of it is people would start being judgmental and telling you how wrong or even how stupid you are without understanding the circumstance. They would even start telling you that “you should not have done this and that… and bla bla bla

Oh well… I guess it is our problem, we tend to listen to respond than listen to understand why the thing is going wrong with somebody’s else life. Am I right?

And those are the last thing that I want to hear from others especially when I know very well that they are not in my shoes.  Yet, sometimes …. I still have a discussion with my friends also about my problem but not to seek for advice.

So what should I do if I need some advice? As I love reading the book and listening to music, I always would seek some advice from an inspirational book or inspirational songs. It helps me to reflect on my problem. Other than that, they would never judge me but tend to give me a wiser suggestion. That’s the best thing about it! Try it!

So that’s why I rather share my burden by blogging than talking to friends because I want to protect my feeling, to protect my heart and to prevent me from bad influences from others. But as humanely as possible,  I am trying my best to not posting a harmful or sensitive blog anyhow. So bear with me readers….

Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy my blog!

 

Music: Gone Going

 

Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He’s a rich man so he’s no longer singing the blues
He’s singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don’t bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain’t singing from the heart
Sooner or later he’s just gonna fall apart
Cause his fans can’t relate to his new found art
He ain’t doing what he did from the start
And that’s putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Cash in his love for material

[Chorus]
And its gone… gone… going…
Gone… everything gone… give a damn…
Gone be the birds when they don’t want to sing…
Gone people… all awkward with their things… gone.

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe cause it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Cause you don’t really know, don’t really know
Who he is, the person that’s deep within
Cause you are content with just being the name-brand man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I’ve seen your kind before
You’re the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with incense sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that’s righteous
You’re fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Cause… what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its…

[Chorus]

You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about… that crime that you did to get paid
And what about… that bid, you can’t take it to your brain
What about those shoes you’ll wear today
They’ll do no good on the bridges you burnt along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold purse on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what’s worst is your soul’s already gone

[Chorus]

Ride the bus

Music: Far Away

[Chris Richardson]
Just to see her (see her)
But she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – verse 1]
Sittin’ on a plane
Reminscing back when I made that mistake
I wish it never ended with a heartbreak
Now your heart broken, tears in ya face
Ask myself why, looking at the sky
If I could turn back I’d make it all right
Praying that you better but its still stormy weather
Don’t wanna let go but the rain wont let up
Now you gone, still thinking bout you everyday
And I know feelings was hurt and you can blame me but
I’m sorry for the games that I played
But now it’s too late
And now she’s,

[Chris Richardson]
Now she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – verse 2]
It’s cold putting up a fight
Arguing back and forth through the night
Regardless what I said and I don’t most of it
You know I really love you, this the realest goin’ get
It take time to realise what you really wanna know
You was ready for it all but your feelings I ignored
I know my fault, I should’ve gave more
Now you’re miles away and I’m miles on tour
Now it’s drums playing, crowd singing
Light changing, wish you was here to witness all that
It starts fading
They say two wrongs don’t make it right
And I was wrong and now it aint right

[Chris Richardson]
Cause she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – bridge]
Na na na nah
If I could turn back
If I could make it right
I’d do just that
If I could make it right
I’d do it all tonight
Hold you in my arms, with you I’d spend my life

Na na na nah
If I could turn back
If I could make it right
I’d do just that
I’d do just that
If I could turn back

(Come back here again)

[Chris Richardson]
Cause she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Bridge]
[End]
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Spirituality: Prodigal Son

Father I have sinned, help me find my way

Remember not my sins, just let me hear You say

Chorus
I forgive you, I love you. You are mine, take my hand
Go in peace, sin no more, beloved one.

Father I have turned, my back and walked away
Depended on my strength and lived life my own way  – Chorus

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Father I have closed, my heart to those in need
Thought only of myself, a victim of my greed – Chorus
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Father I Have Love if Love’s the word to use
I’ve player so many game they’ve left me so confused-Chorus

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Father I’ve returned, I’m home with You to stay
Standing by your door, knowing that You’ll say-Chorus

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Music: Cups

Cups by Anna Kendrick

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round

Two bottles of whiskey for the way

And I sure would like some sweet company

And I’m leaving tomorrow what-do-you say?

Chorus:

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my hair

You’re gonna miss me everywhere, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

 

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my walk

You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

 

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round

The one with the prettiest of views

It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers

It’s got sights to give you shivers

But it sure would be prettier with you

 

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my walk

You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

back to chorus

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