Notes: Why Am I Blogging?

e44c7025-693d-4983-8cf2-a6dcbbb37b28Perhaps some of you wonder why I like to share my personal problem in social media, i.e blog. Well, I am the type of person who I always have a reason why I do thing things whether why I shave my hair off, why I go to the gym or even why I blog about my personal life.

So why do I blog about my personal life? Once I read a blog post saying that writing a journal would help our personal growth and development because it would give us an insight into our behaviour and moods. I kind of agree with that statement, especially I have been writing a personal diary since I was a little girl and have been blogging since I was 16. I found that writing a journal would help me to reflect on my life especially everything that I have been going through. On top of that, I also can review the improvement of my writing skill and my vocabulary bank.

But I must say that I am not kind of person who likes to share my problem with my friend.  It is not because I don’t trust them to keep my secret but I tend to not believe or trust their judgement. Not saying that they are wrong, it is just ….. their judgement tends to lead me to further confusion.

And the most annoying part of it is people would start being judgmental and telling you how wrong or even how stupid you are without understanding the circumstance. They would even start telling you that “you should not have done this and that… and bla bla bla

Oh well… I guess it is our problem, we tend to listen to respond than listen to understand why the thing is going wrong with somebody’s else life. Am I right?

And those are the last thing that I want to hear from others especially when I know very well that they are not in my shoes.  Yet, sometimes …. I still have a discussion with my friends also about my problem but not to seek for advice.

So what should I do if I need some advice? As I love reading the book and listening to music, I always would seek some advice from an inspirational book or inspirational songs. It helps me to reflect on my problem. Other than that, they would never judge me but tend to give me a wiser suggestion. That’s the best thing about it! Try it!

So that’s why I rather share my burden by blogging than talking to friends because I want to protect my feeling, to protect my heart and to prevent me from bad influences from others. But as humanely as possible,  I am trying my best to not posting a harmful or sensitive blog anyhow. So bear with me readers….

Have a wonderful weekend and enjoy my blog!

 

Music: Gone Going

 

Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He’s a rich man so he’s no longer singing the blues
He’s singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don’t bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain’t singing from the heart
Sooner or later he’s just gonna fall apart
Cause his fans can’t relate to his new found art
He ain’t doing what he did from the start
And that’s putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Cash in his love for material

[Chorus]
And its gone… gone… going…
Gone… everything gone… give a damn…
Gone be the birds when they don’t want to sing…
Gone people… all awkward with their things… gone.

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe cause it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Cause you don’t really know, don’t really know
Who he is, the person that’s deep within
Cause you are content with just being the name-brand man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I’ve seen your kind before
You’re the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with incense sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that’s righteous
You’re fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Cause… what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its…

[Chorus]

You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about… that crime that you did to get paid
And what about… that bid, you can’t take it to your brain
What about those shoes you’ll wear today
They’ll do no good on the bridges you burnt along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold purse on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what’s worst is your soul’s already gone

[Chorus]

Ride the bus

Music: Far Away

[Chris Richardson]
Just to see her (see her)
But she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – verse 1]
Sittin’ on a plane
Reminscing back when I made that mistake
I wish it never ended with a heartbreak
Now your heart broken, tears in ya face
Ask myself why, looking at the sky
If I could turn back I’d make it all right
Praying that you better but its still stormy weather
Don’t wanna let go but the rain wont let up
Now you gone, still thinking bout you everyday
And I know feelings was hurt and you can blame me but
I’m sorry for the games that I played
But now it’s too late
And now she’s,

[Chris Richardson]
Now she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – verse 2]
It’s cold putting up a fight
Arguing back and forth through the night
Regardless what I said and I don’t most of it
You know I really love you, this the realest goin’ get
It take time to realise what you really wanna know
You was ready for it all but your feelings I ignored
I know my fault, I should’ve gave more
Now you’re miles away and I’m miles on tour
Now it’s drums playing, crowd singing
Light changing, wish you was here to witness all that
It starts fading
They say two wrongs don’t make it right
And I was wrong and now it aint right

[Chris Richardson]
Cause she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Tyga – bridge]
Na na na nah
If I could turn back
If I could make it right
I’d do just that
If I could make it right
I’d do it all tonight
Hold you in my arms, with you I’d spend my life

Na na na nah
If I could turn back
If I could make it right
I’d do just that
I’d do just that
If I could turn back

(Come back here again)

[Chris Richardson]
Cause she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again

[Bridge]
[End]
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Spirituality: Prodigal Son

Father I have sinned, help me find my way

Remember not my sins, just let me hear You say

Chorus
I forgive you, I love you. You are mine, take my hand
Go in peace, sin no more, beloved one.

Father I have turned, my back and walked away
Depended on my strength and lived life my own way  – Chorus

*

Father I have closed, my heart to those in need
Thought only of myself, a victim of my greed – Chorus
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Father I Have Love if Love’s the word to use
I’ve player so many game they’ve left me so confused-Chorus

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Father I’ve returned, I’m home with You to stay
Standing by your door, knowing that You’ll say-Chorus

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Music: Cups

Cups by Anna Kendrick

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round

Two bottles of whiskey for the way

And I sure would like some sweet company

And I’m leaving tomorrow what-do-you say?

Chorus:

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my hair

You’re gonna miss me everywhere, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

 

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my walk

You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

 

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round

The one with the prettiest of views

It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers

It’s got sights to give you shivers

But it sure would be prettier with you

 

When I’m gone, when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me by my walk

You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

back to chorus

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Music: Bad

Bad by Wale feat Tiara Thomas

Monogamy or whatever you call it
I’m starting to think it ain’t for everybody
Most of us is rushing into it anyways
Know what I’m sayin’

You ain’t rushin’ for love and I ain’t out here to judge
So lets neglect the what if’s and make it do what it does

Lets get it

Is it bad that, I never made love?
No I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I’ll be your bad girl, I’ll prove it to you
I can’t promise that I’ll be good to you
Cause I have some issues I won’t commit
No, not havin’ it
But at least I can admit
That I’ll be bad no to you (to you)
Yeah I’ll be good in bed
But I’ll be bad to you

Bad that, I never made love?
No I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck

Lets get it

Bad girls ain’t no good and the good girls ain’t no fun
And the hood girls want a smart niggaaaa
The college girls all want a thug
So it seems that fiend what we don’t need
Got a thing for a queen who know when to leave.
I ain’t about to judge you, don’t judge me
You ain’t gotta really sing about your rap sheet
Cause I heard you (bad no) yeah
In the literal sense I mean that
Rough sex saying I love you
But to kiss them saying you mean that (bad no)
I know I must be calling her mean ass
On the irony, got the bomb indeed
But the problem is probably a deep past
Still I’m feeling its something I need bad
Thinkin’ if I get her I get her to need this
I don’t need emotions to open your deep sea
I can see the ocean by going between your legs

Beg, nope, bed, floor, dope
Go, for it, couch, now, slow motion
Around, put it down
Lord know she as going for the morn
Hold up

Is it bad that, I never made love?
No I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I’ll be your bad girl, I’ll prove it to you
I can’t promise that I’ll be good to you
Cause I have some issues I won’t commit
No, not havin’ it
But at least I can admit
That I’ll be bad no to you (to you)
Yeah I’ll be good in bed
But I’ll be bad to you

She hurt feeling, she break hearts
She stay quiet, she play smart
She take pride, I’m going out
Getting hollered at, and saying nah
She no saint, but she don’t pose
She don’t wear make up by the boat load
Riding through the lake shore with the nose up
She don’t really date but it slows her up
She got haters but we all do
Heard you winter time cold, shawty fall through
Baby look at they approach how they court you
All those mind games never mind cause they all lose (bad no)
In the physical sense I mean that
I ain’t trynna kiss up, suck up, feed gas
I ain’t like them nigga you sucking your teeth at, nope
Play big trust me I’ll jumble your mean ass, look
Shawty is actually in prevent
Cause the one working in front
Is working with deep threat, yep

Bed, floor, couch, more
More, shower, Lord, perm
Done, love, nah
Called in the morning
Cell number wasn’t on, God

Is it bad that, I never made love?
No I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I’ll be your bad girl, I’ll prove it to you
I can’t promise that I’ll be good to you
Cause I have some issues I won’t commit
No, not havin’ it
But at least I can admit
That I’ll be bad no to you (to you)
Yeah I’ll be good in bed
But I’ll be bad to you

Bad that, I never made love
No I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I’ll be your ….

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Music: Blow Me One Last Kiss

Blow Me One Last Kiss (P!nk)

White knuckles, and sweaty palms from
Hanging on too tight
Clenched shut jaw, I’ve got another
Headache again tonight

Eyes on fire, eyes on fire
And they’ll burn from all the tears
I’ve been crying, I’ve been crying
I’ve been dying over you

Tie a knot, in the rope
Trying to hold, trying to hold
But there’s nothing to grab
So I let go

I think I’ve finally had enough
I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us
Blow me one last kiss

You think I’m just too serious
I think you’re full of shit
My head is spinning so
Blow me one last kiss

Just when it can’t get worse
I’ve had a shit day (Yeah)
Have you had a shit day? (Yeah)
We’ve had a shit day (Yeah)

I think that life’s too short for this
Want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I’ve had enough of this
Blow me one last kiss

I won’t miss, all of the fighting
That we always did
Take it in, I mean what I say when I say
There is nothing left

No more sick, whiskey dick
No more battles for me
You’ll be calling a trick
‘Cause you’ll no longer sleep

I’ll dress nice, I’ll look good
I’ll go dancing alone
I will laugh, I’ll get drunk
I’ll take somebody home

I think I’ve finally had enough
I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us
Blow me one last kiss

You think I’m just too serious
I think you’re full of shit
My head is spinning so
Blow me one last kiss

Just when it can’t get worse
I’ve had a shit day (Yeah)
Have you had a shit day? (Yeah)
We’ve had a shit day (Yeah)

I think that life’s too short for this
Want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I’ve had enough of this
Blow me one last kiss

Ba-Da-Da-Da, Da-Da-Da-Da
(Bre-Ump-Ump, Um-Ah-Uh-Uh)
Blow me one last kiss

Ba-Da-Da-Da, Da-Da-Da-Da
(Bre-Ump-Ump, Um-Ah-Uh-Uh)
Blow me one last kiss

I will do, what I please
Anything, that I want
I won’t breathe, I won’t breathe
I won’t worry at all

You will pay, for your sins
You’ll be sorry, My Dear
All the lies, all the whys
Will all be, Crystal Clear

I think I’ve finally had enough
I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us
Blow me one last kiss

You think I’m just too serious
I think you’re full of shit
My head is spinning so
Blow me one last kiss

Just when it can’t get worse
I’ve had a shit day (Yeah)
Have you had a shit day? (Yeah)
We’ve had a shit day (Yeah)

I think that life’s too short for this
Want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I’ve had enough of this
Blow me one last kiss

Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Blow me one last kiss

Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Na-Na-Na-Na-Da-Da-Da-Da
Blow me one last kiss

Just when it can’t get worse
I’ve had a shit day (Yeah)
Have you had a shit day? (Yeah)
We’ve had a shit day (Yeah)

I think that life’s too short for this
Want back my ignorance and bliss
I think I’ve had enough of this
Blow me one last kiss
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Music: Just Give Me a Reason

Just Give Me A Reason by Pink feat Nate Rues

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I, your willing victim

I let you see the parts of me
That weren’t all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them

Now you’ve been talking in your sleep
Oh, oh, things you never say to me
Oh, oh, tell me that you’ve had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I’m sorry I don’t understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)

Your head is running wild again
My dear, we still have everythin’
And it’s all in your mind
(Yeah, but this is happenin’)

You’ve been havin’ real bad dreams
Oh, oh, you used to lie so close to me
Oh, oh, there’s nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I never stopped
You’re still written in the scars on my heart
You’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, tear ducts and rust
I’ll fix it for us
We’re collecting dust
But our love’s enough

You’re holding it in
You’re pouring a drink
No, nothing is as bad as it seems
We’ll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit’s enough
Just a second
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

It’s in the stars
It’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, that we’re not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
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