Last night, baby A was being difficult. He fell asleep at 7.30 p.m. and suddenly he woke up, cried and screamed around 9 p.m for hours. He wanted me to sleep with him, whenever I tried to leave his room, he pulled me and asked me to hug him. As he fell asleep, I tried … Continue reading Notes: Protector
I cannot remember what exactly happened to me in these last three days. I don’t remember where I went, what I did and what day it was. All I knew I have been unconscious and senseless. I am not proud what I am doing. In fact, I am ashamed. But I cannot handle anymore. I … Continue reading Notes: Recall
Sometimes I just want to run. Run far. Far away. But I don’t know where to. Sometimes I just wanna die. I run and bus hit me. But I have a son that I cannot leave behind. And I just feel afraid. Anxiety came. Suicidal thought came across my head. I had been half unconscious … Continue reading Notes: Self- Destruction
It was all started in 2009 when a doctor told me that I would only have another 10 years to live if my liver problem was being treated. He did not give me any choice because he saw me as a poor student and the treatment was expensive. I was only 21 years old university … Continue reading Notes: Recovery
Running has always been my thing and I have always been into outdoor running. Unfortunately, since I moved to Bangladesh in early 2016, outdoor running did not seem to be visible. It is because I cannot wear my 'normal' running gear -sport bra and short- as it is culturally inappropriate. As a foreigner, I just … Continue reading Notes: The Wanderer
Many people say that once a woman becomes a mother, she will lose her body, become fat and have jiggly yet flabby body especially those who has baby delivered through c-section including me. Don’t even dream to get your body back, so they say. But here I am, I prove them wrong. You can still … Continue reading Notes: Losing Your Body? Nah!
The world marks October 10 as the World Mental Health Day. It aims to raise an awareness about mental health issue. By raising awareness about mental health, people who have mental health problem could get help as soon as possible because they are aware that they have a problem. And I know very well how … Continue reading Notes: On Mental Health