Notes: The Ugly Truth

When I returned to Indonesia last October, many told me that I have gained weight. I was afraid to admit and accept the fact that I have gained weight. Why? It is because I used to be very discipline with my diet and exercise. It is just an ugly truth for me.

Although people told me in a joking manner, hearing the ugly truth somehow made me bit depressed that time. Even worse, as a sensitive person, somehow I felt that I was being mocked or bullied while they might not intent to mock or bully me.

Therefore, I was thinking to losing my fat in instant way by doing some pricey treatment and went to nearby¬†clinic. As soon as I was sitting at the clinic, the doctor offered me a various treatment, which is crazy expensive. So i said to myself “Should I do it? But That’s not me.”

Yet, I took the cheapest treatment acupuncture on that day. But I felt so guilty because I have been always against an instant way to be skinny. At the end, what is wrong being curvy?

I forced myself to get back to my normal routine by doing my morning running, exercise and controlling my diet with the expectation that I could go be 43 kg and lean again. I mean I am still lean but I want to be leaner.

However, my personal trainer said to me that I look better now because I look healthier than before. I am fit and not fat. All I need to do is to ignore those, who have been controlled media about the perfect female body image.

At the end of the day, being healthy is more important than being skinny. Although I am 47 kg, all my extra small size clothes are still fit me well.

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  1. When I was reading this, i think to my self…. OMG, I was extremely fat then! *Even I considered myself as curvy*
    However it’s inspiring me to start my routine and exercise again (and again..and again), mbak! and diet……. (masih agak ga rela ngucapin dietnya)

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