Simply because you were chicken out [2014: E O]
It has been three weeks since my relationship with my dawg has been falling apart. My dawg always said to me if I kept receiving SMSes terror, it is away better that we do not stay as friends anymore because he felt that he became the center of the issue. A number of SMSes mentioned his name and what his business are. My dawg was worried. I was worried. We were worried.
Our relationship has been falling apart few weeks ago. I thought I would never received the SMS, which is intended to harassed me anymore. Yet, I still received an SMS on Friday night (Dec. 12) mocking me, praying evil for me.
Interestingly enough, the person said to me “You think that I am going to stop bothering you?! Hallo… your life will be falling apart and we do not need to wait for years because you would die soon,“
I smiled while I read the SMS. It is not the first time this person wish me death. Geez…. I wonder why this person hate me so much? I felt that I have never done anything wrong to her. So why she hates me so much? I asked myself. Is it because of my dawg?
But as always I have no obligation to respond her message. There is no point to deal with ungrateful spirit, which is so hateful. My curious mind tried to connecting the dot between all the SMSes and tweets from one one of twitter account of a woman, who like to playing billiard in Kelapa Gading of North Jakarta area.
I met her once and I strongly believed that it was from her. And I strongly believed that she might have a relationship with my dawg that is why she kept harassing me. But why me? Why am I the one to be attacked? Well… who knows? There must be a monkey business behind it.
To be honest, I am not afraid of these SMSes but it is just bothering. It is very foolish and childish. Why don’t you just come to me and tell me what is the problem? Why should you send a blackmail? That’s what bothering.
Every night, I get down on my knee and pray to God to understand the circumstance by reading the bible. I do what the Proverbs 26: 4 said “Do not answer a fool according to his folly, or you yourself will be just like him.” It is a very sensible advice.
Lord hear us, Mother Mary pray for us [2013: E O]
Yet whenever I opened the bible I am always being lead to the book of Psalms to a Prayer of Protection, a Prayer of Helps and also God’s Complete Knowledge and Care. Nearly everyday, I was lead to similar reading. Until few days ago, I was lead to the book of Esther. I have never read any chapter from it. I came into a reading title “Haman Is Put To Death
” (Esther 6: 14, Esther 7: 1-10).
It got me interested. What is it all about? So I started to read the book of Esther on “Haman Is Put To Death” But who is Haman? I read the book of Esther from the beginning to understand the character on the book of Esther.
Esther is a female Jewish hero, who bravely defeat her enemy who wants to destroy Israel. Meanwhile Haman is the prime minister of Susa, the capital city of Persia. Haman was appointed by King Xerxes. Yet, he is an evil man. He plot evil against Esther to sell her and her people for slaughter.
Not just that, Haman also went further to build a seventy five feet tall of gallows at his house to hang Mordecai, Esther’s cousin who has adopted her to be his own daughter when her parents die and who has saved king Xerxes’s life. King Xerxes, who heard about it, was angry and ordered his people to hang Haman on his own trap’s that he has prepared.
The moral of the story of “Haman Is Put To Death” is that we do not need to take any revenge against our enemy and dirt our hand because God would take care of it in His own time, in His own way.
As soon as I finished reading the book of Esther, I opened the book of Psalms 141 and read it in tears loudly as if I was angry to God. “I keep trusting in you my Sovereign Lord. I seek your protection and don’t let me die. Protect me from the traps they have set for me, from snares of those evildoers. May the wicked fall into their own traps while I go unharmed.“
My heart was pounding. I know it would come true. I always believe on the power of prayer. Many times my prayer has been answered. Humbly I pray for God’s protection. The book of Esther has taught me a lot if I place my trust in God, I would be protected. The wicked one would traps in their own traps sooner or later. Again, I don’t need to do any revenge. It would be pointless and I gain nothing. I leave it to God to take care of it. I know my hand is clean from this issue.
Everyday I just keep praying to Jesus Christ and Mother Mary, may God would touch her heart, mind and spirit to stop planning evil against me. If it is according to God’s Holy will, God would lead her to come and apologize to me one day for God has showed her a reminder. I just pray if it is because of all the dirty money business, I pray to God to let them making money without hurting other people as it is not fair to the innocent one. In the Jesus’s name I pray, Amen.
I may not be a devoted Catholic or Christian but I believe in the power of prayer.