Goodbye 2012! Hello 2013
Wow! It seems to me that 2012 just started yesterday, I thought it was just a couple of weeks ago that I went to Canada, had my first white Christmas in 2011 and went up to the CN tower in Toronto during early 2012.
But no, today is the second day of 2013 already. I am just amazed that time has passed by so quickly. The time has passed away for 366 days until another new year eve celebration was celebrated again.
If I look back on everything that I have been through in 2012, I am so grateful for everything that has happened to me whether it was good or bad. I feel that I am so blessed to be able to have had all these experiences that have opened my eyes especially about relationships, friendships, career, family, lifestyle, health, happiness, struggle and also spiritual life.
There was also much laughter, tears, happiness, sadness, anger, joy, love, hatred, hope, despair, acceptance, rejection, excitement, boredom, kindness and cruelty in 2012. And once again, I am so grateful because God has given me strength to pass through all of my life situations in 2012.
Anyway, here I would like to share some of my experiences from 2012.
1. Live a Healthier Lifestyle
Exercise is a way to live a healthy lifestyle
I can proudly say that I have been able to live a healthier lifestyle in 2012 because I had been able to push myself to go to the gym more often compared to previous years. Some people often said to me “Why the phuck would you go to the gym if you already got a slim body?”
I would just smile whenever I heard that comment or question because for me going to the gym is not about getting skinnier but it is a way to live a healthy lifestyle. Since I go to the gym more often and spend at least a couple of hours to exercise, I can say that I feel healthier and don’t get sick easily.
Other than that, it helps me a lot to channel my anger, sadness and also disappointment in a positive way. Therefore, my 2013 goal is to discipline myself to go to the gym more often and make it a priority to be done first thing in the morning before I start my activity.
2. Have Faith in God
Have Faith in God
I would say that I have become more a ‘religious’ person these days than I have ever been in my entire life. Of course, it did not just happen out of the blue. It all started when I was re-introduced to Jesus Christ back in the mid 2011 by George (my very best friend) after I left my religious life for many years because of one reason or another.
I would say that having myself reunite with Christ has brought more peaceful into my life. It is because I tried to have confidence in God than in myself. I have a belief that God is faithful, He would not allow us to be tempted beyond what we are able to handle. And I can confirm that it is true.
I vividly remember when I followed my ego and thought that I would be able to survive on my own two feet because I thought that I am smart and able to handle everything. Yes, I was able to handle everything very well and able to reach all my dream. But the question is ‘Was I happy with all the results? Was I satisfied with all the results?’ And the answer was ‘No! I was not well satisfied and I wanted more‘
I’m glad to be re-introduced to Christ
I would say that I became an arrogant human being and greedy. I did not live a peaceful life, I tried to escape from one problem to another problem until I reunited with Christ again back to 2011.
It was so difficult to be grateful in every life situation before. I used to be always worried that tomorrow will be a hard day. But now I have learnt how to be grateful for life’s every situation because God has given me strength especially when I am weak and in difficult situations.
‘I have thanked Thee a thousand times for my roses but never once for my thorn.’ George Matheson, a Scottish author and preacher.
I just feel that I don’t have to be worried about tomorrow and whatever challenge that I would face because I believe that God is with me. And I am now also trying to always thank for my thorn as well.
Therefore, my 2013 goal is to strengthen my faith in Christ and tried to understand the God’s message through Holy Spirit.
3. Being A Full Time Freelance Journalist
Being a Full Time Freelance Journalist
In early 2012, I tried administrative job. Despite the fact it paid me well, I found this job was just not for me. Fortunately, mbak Ade, my former colleague from the Jakarta Globe, informed me that there was an opportunity to be a freelance writer for an online media outlet, based in the United State of America. But it focuses on story from South East Asia including Indonesia.
During 2012, I tended to cover stories on terrorism and religious violence in Indonesia. I would say that I am lucky to work with them because it enables me to meet and talk with many interesting people such as Ansyaad Mbai, the head of National Counter Terrorism Agency (BNPT); Noor Huda Ismail, an Indonesian terrorism expert; Machmudi Hariono, a former terrorist who is now running a culinary business and Agus Santoso, deputy chairman of Financial Transaction Report and Analysts Center (PPATK).
Other than that, I was also lucky to to coveron Umar Patek’s trial, a convicted terrorist who was involved in the 2002 terror attack in Bali that killed more than 200 people; I was also invited to number of public discussion on terrorism and also religious violence.
I would say that being a freelancer is not all good news because I do not get a fixed monthly income. But I am not going to be worried about it because it is all back to myself. If I want to earn more, I just need to work harder.
Therefore, my 2013 goal is to discipline myself where I must focus whenever I am working on a story so I can finish it on time and submit it on-time.
It is actually not difficult to write one story a day because I used to write two or three stories per day while I was working as a general news reporter for an English language newspaper in Indonesia.
4. Being A Sudden Fashionista or Shopaholic
One of my red sole collection, a pair of Dugueclina 100 Nappa
I have to admit that I become a crazy and uncontrollable shopaholic in 2012. I did not know why I suddenly become obsess with luxury fashion products, which I used to hate. Perhaps it is because I watched too much Sex and The City ; )
Last month when I visited Yogya, Ucha and Adit, a couple of my best friends who love fashion and who reminded me how I used to hate all those shit when I was still a university student in Yogya. I did not care what was the brand of my bag, my shoes, my jeans or even my underwear as long as I feel comfortable wearing it. We had a laugh about it. But as 50 Cent said things change, they don’t stay the same.
Now, it is all just about Christian Louboutin, Dolce & Gabbana, Bottega Veneta, Tods, Jean Paul Gaultier, Armani, Loewe, Burberry, Versace, Prada, Gucci, Giuseppe Zanotti, Dior, Marc Jacob, DKNY, bebe, Massimo Dutti, L.A.M.B and many more. On the top of that, I don’t purchase for the fake one but the original ones. as T.I said ‘I’m allergic to counterfeit‘
Shopping for label, shopping for love….
And ….. the worst part of my new obsession is that I have been buying the latest collection, which is not smart at all! I have learnt that I must be a little more patient to get a better deal. If I just wait for three or four months since the latest collection has been released, I would get better deal with large discount.
I don’t know why but sometimes whenever I walk past boutiques, the mannequins are just waving at me …… and the problem is that I love pretty things …. It sucks right? [I know… I am defending myself, which is not good].
Therefore, I hope I would be able to control my desire to buy luxury goods because I have more than what I needs. I must start to bank again….
P.S: I still want to get black leather jacket, leather pants, ankle boots (more?), sony lens and many more. [Oh evil spirit… please go away! Lemme banking!]
Anyway, I am looking forward for 2013 to improving my 2012. 2013 is an opportunity to turn over a new leafs.
Oh geez… It’s a long blog, isn’t it? So… I wish y’all a very happy and prosperous new year. God bless y’all.