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Notes: I’ve Lost My Shape

Me, myself, I have never known how do I look like exactly,

There was a day when they asked me this question,


“So girl… How do you look like actually?”,



For few moment, I reflected myself 

One


Two


Three


Four



In four second,  I thought that I got the answer.

So I answered proudly “I am a square,”

But they said “No! You are not! You do not look like one”


But I answered with another answer confidently “I am a triangle” 

And they said again to me “No! You are not. You do not look like one!”

For few moments, I began to be quite,

Wondering how I look like exactly,

Wondering if I have ever known how I look like even once in my life?

Or actually I simply never did.

So I tried to see myself in the clear white ceramic floor,

Tried to catch my shadow and seek for the answer,

And so I answered again ” I am a circle,”

But they laughed and broke the quitness

They yelled and said “No! You are not honey! You do not look like one”

“How could you not know yourself?” they asked. 

Their loud laugh were really deafening my hearing,

Their loud laugh hit me right into my heart,

Their loud laugh indeed killed me,

But …

But their loud laugh showed me that I have known myself

I  was stoned and said no word in tears,

Kept trying to find another answer,

But yet,  I could not find the answer

Silence and tears could not help me to find one.

Knowing that I have never known myself,

It indeed tortured me,

I felt like to run far away,

Seeking every comfort in every pain.

I felt like to run far away,

Seeking a comfortable place to figure out my shape,

Knowing that I have never known my own shape,

It indeed tortured me,

I’ve lost my shape. 

I need the light, I need the guidance,

I need a map to figure out my own shape,

It indeed tortured me,

Knowing that I have never known my shape,

I’ve lost myself. 

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The Power of Social Media: My Rude Complaint to Equinox and X2 Management Got Respond

It was early Saturday morning. A memory of a bad incident was flashing to my mind. An incident where I lost my hand bag in Equinox Club, Senayan and I lost a blackberry torch, Rp 800,000 of cash, Mandiri ATM card, HSBC credit card, apartment key, apartment pass card, press card and a driving license. An incident, where I had to ask the security guard to break down the door at 4:00 AM. An incident, where my cash was being stolen from my ATM.

An incident which happened on Friday night ,  17 September 2011.

An incident, where I swore to myself that I would never come back to Equinox anymore even I did enjoying the atmosphere there.

The reason that I did not want to go back to Equinox anymore because Equinox did not give me a positive respond on how they would help me toward my case at the first place when I told them that I lost my handbag. Instead, a girl name Marsha said arrogantly to me that their security was not only taking care of one person. (Of course, I have acknowledged that but could you please give me other positive respond as your customer was getting panic for losing her stuff?)

As I was super panic, I lost my temper, I screamed to Marsha and I said FVCK YOU BITCH! (Of course, you could not expect me to treat you nicely when you responded me arrogantly. No! You don’t go around the fire and expect not to sweat!) Remember that you guys are selling a service and I paid for that.

Actually, I often tried to force myself to move on and forget bad thing which happened into my life but sometimes I think about it more than I can ever forget it. Four weeks later after the incident at Equinox, I went back to the club with my friends (because my friends asked me to go) but I just could not forget what happened, I could not accept or even forget on how the way the treat me and I just cried. No! It did not matter that I lost my stuff but I was so annoyed on how arrogant they treated me. (Come on… I pay for your service)

Other than that, as I have been going out to Equinox almost every Friday night in the past a year, I acknowledged that the bartender (at the big bar) at Equinox were often cheating on the customer by (1) increasing the price of the drink when the customer pay in cash or (2) never giving back the change. It is kinda annoying that they cheated on their own customer because Equinox will get a bad reputation. I mean, if you wanted tips, your generous customer will give you but do not steal from the. (In a fact, many people shared the same story to me but they just do not speak up and prefer to not go to Equinox anymore) . But, well as I said earlier that by being a saint, nobody would be able to make some cash to purchase for some basic need. Hence they cheat on their customer.

So after some shits that happened to me every time I went to Equinox for fun, I decided to send a complain over twitter by saying:

@OktofaniE I suddenly want to say FVCK YOU @_X2_ @equinoxjkt. You let many thief entering as the entrance fee is so cheap and becoming your own staffs! 

@OktofaniE tweet on complaining over X2 service

Few hours later after I sent the twitter complain, I got a respond from the manager of Equinox on the twitter, they offered me to hold a meeting and explaining what happened. To make a long story short, I agreed and I was glad to get a positive attitude from the Marketing Director of Equinox, they promised to follow-up and would have another meeting.

@_X2_ tweet on responding my complain via twitter

@marcohermawan (X2 DOSM) tweet on responding my twitter complain

To be frank, although they have apologized to me but the second meeting was quite disappointing because FIRSTLY I met with the Marsha girl, she was trying to explain what happened and she was also being so arrogantly defensive about her attitude. She said that I have violated human right by screaming at her and saying FVCK YOU BITCH! (I did not give a damn about what she said, because she was acting arrogantly when I told her what happened that night. You got for what you paid! Other than that, I will not poke you if you did not poke me at the first place.)

SECONDLY, they said to me that I used very rude word on the twitter when I complain about their service. Yeah! I admitted that I used the rude word. I used the word FVCK to show my big disappointment to them on how arrogant they treated their customer. I know you guys would be on fire a.k.a kebakaran jenggot when I used the word and that is what I called ‘the power of social media’

Nowadays, people use social media to  push some parties to solve a problem. I believe that I was not the only victim at the Equinox, either from the pick pocket case or the cheating bartender case. I prefer to speak up what’s on my mind even with a shaking voice

The power of twitter

Although I have had many  fabulous Friday night in the club  in the past one year  [I met my wedding dress designer there (who is now becoming my friend-thanks to Andie Oyong to link me with her), I met my best friend who helped me to bring my spiritual life back, I met some of great people who become my sources for my article],  I will try to not go back there anymore because I am very disappointed with either X2 or Equinox especially with not well-trained staff.

X2 and Equinox have been such a great place to hang out but I would try to not go back there because I just want to move on and I do not want to be hurt with such an arrogant attitude when I know I deserve better than that.

Although you guys were willing to solve the problem, tried to apologize and offered me VIP member card for free, but it was little too late because it was so painful when you ‘kicked’ me when I was down with your staff arrogant attitude. However, I will try to get rid of all the pains, let no hard feeling stay in my heart, move on and will never go back to X2.

Anyway, I would like to suggest to X2 and Equinox that  they must provide a proper waiter training including a crisis management training because you are in hospitality business and you will be providing service. Unless you improve your staff attitude on how to serve the customer, your customer will slowly leave your club. Perhaps, you can check this link for the references.

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Notes: A Stiff Competition Could Turn A Saint To Be an Evil in A Big City

Jakarta View from Plaza Semanggi

It was 5:30 A.M.,  Saturday morning in  late October 2011. I was sitting on the back of taxi, leaving North Jakarta and heading to South Jakarta. I felt so tired and restless. I just wanted to jump to my bed and closed my eyes. But I could not because  I was still sitting on the back of the taxi.

As always, every time I sit on the back of the taxi, I always put my iPod on, kept looking outside the window and kept my eyes on whatever passing by me. I really like to do so because this particular activity would teach me a lesson about life directly or indirectly which I believe we will never get those kind of lesson in the schools.

This particular morning, I saw several things that make me thinking about life, a big city life and a stiff competition in a big city such Jakarta. I smiled and said to myself ‘How lucky I am to be here and experience such a thing in this early stage of life, whether it is a good or bad experiences”

As the taxi drove by slowly, I saw an old man driving an old Honda motorbike with many cheap steel pots on the back of his motorbike, he drove slowly in the left side of  an empty road in Pulo Mas area. I believed that he was heading to the market to make some cash. Usually, the earlier a merchant arrived in the market, the more money they could make.

Few minutes later, I passed by on some young women and men, who were lining up in the busway stop somewhere in Cempaka Putih, who were ready to work.  Another few minutes later, my eyes on a fancy sport car driving pass by so fast, super fast. I was just amazed. ‘WOW! When will I get one of those? Will I even be able to purchase the cheaper one?’

As I was just amazed to see what I saw in the past few minutes, suddenly a memory of a bad incident was flashing to my mind. An incident where I lost my hand bag in Equinox Club, Senayan and I lost a blackberry torch, Rp 800,000 of cash, Mandiri ATM card, HSBC credit card, apartment key, apartment pass card, press card and a driving license. An incident, where I had to ask the security guard to break down the door. An incident, where my cash was being stolen from my ATM. An incident which happened on Friday night ,  17 September 2011.

An incident, where I swore to myself that I would never come back to Equinox anymore even I did enjoying the atmosphere there.

The reason that I did not want to go back to Equinox anymore because Equinox did not give me a positive respond on how they would help me toward my case when I told them that I lost my handbag. Instead, a girl name Masha said arrogantly to me that their security was not only taking care of one person. (Of course, I have acknowledged that but could you please give me other positive respond as your customer was getting panic for losing her stuff?)

As I was super panic, I lost my temper, I screamed to Marsha and I said FVCK YOU BITCH! (Of course, you could not expect me to treat you nicely when you responded me arrogantly. No! You don’t go around the fire and expect not to sweat!) Remember that you guys are selling a service and I paid for that!

I just could smile with a broken heart remembering that night! It sucks and I said to myself

“Either I was too naive or too stupid to think that somebody will give you a hand when you are in such a difficult time because in the end of the day human is too selfish to deal with their own business. Security ain’t offering any help and the waitress and PR were being bitch. Life is not as sweet as candy. Life is indeed a bitch!”

When we cannot differentiate between angel and devil anymore

Anyway, all the things, I saw with my own eyes and the bad memory which suddenly flashed by in mind, really got me thinking that a big city life  is not easy. A big city life is full of competition and competition is indeed stiff. It is all back into ourselves on how we want to respond on every challenge in the competition, either we want to stay in a healthy competition or we would like to cheat to win the competition.

Remember that a big city life is indeed a bitch! It would be so hard to find a saint in the big city because by being a saint, nobody would be able to survive. By being a saint, nobody would be able to make some cash to purchase for some basic need. By being a saint, nobody would be able to live a life that the world has offered to us.

A businessman, a member of parliament, a police officer and the government turned to be a corrupt politician, a poor people turned to be a thief, a young girl turned to be a prostitute, a young boy turned to be a drug dealer, etc, etc. Many people tend to be cruel to each other, many people tend to hurt others to live a comfortable life for themselves and their family, many people tend to be greedy and many people tend to show nothing but hate because of jealousy.

A stiff competition has effected the innocent children to be unable to get their education

A Contrast View from North Jakarta where an Apartment is Built Next to the Poor Neighbourhood.

It is very sad to see what happened in a big city life, isn’t it? Especially when I tried to compare a big city life to Yogyakarta or Bali life. And for me, money has made human losing their humanity, sometimes money has turned human to be an evil. I wonder what the world would be if every one is fighting for money while the competition is getting stiffer. They can just kill each other.

I vividly remember when I did an interview with Wanda Hamidah about her plan if she would be elected as Jakarta Governor.

“I want Jakarta to be a city that is more humane, one that strives to fulfill the rights of the disenfranchised, including women and special-needs children,” Wanda Hamidah said on Friday (29/10)

Listening what she said, it really got me thinking that Jakarta is a city where the humanity is slowly fading away because everyone is trying to meet their own need. So I questioned myself:

‘Fani…How would you respond on every challenge that you are going to face when you are living a big city life? Will you be the evil? Or, will you be the saint?’

To be honest, I do not know what the exact answer for those questions because a big city life is a bitch! It is a very hard life! I vividly remember that some people said to me ‘Girl! Don’t be too Javanese in Jakarta (Javanese are well-known to keep saying yes because they do not feel okay if they say NO)! If you do, people will take an advantage from you and you will be doomed!’

But the only thing that I can say is I just want to live my life, work hard to reach my dreams and enjoy every penny that I make from my own sweat. Hence as long as people do not bother or hurt me, I will not bother them  because I am typical of quite person and that is how my parents taught me. As Barney Stinson (Neil Patrick Harris) said “Don’t poke the dragon because the dragon will poke you back,”

Anyhow, they say that life is a bitch but no matter how cruel life has treated us, I believe that we would be able to face every challenge that come to us because G.O.D would give us a challenge that we cannot handle it. However, it depends on our own willing. Other than that, even though they say that competition is stiff but it would be better that we win the competition without hurting somebody’s else. Let’s have a healthy competition than the bloodly one.

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